25-years-old? Oh, what a time to be alive.
I spent my birthday morning no different than any other day. I woke up, showered, checked my 5 email accounts, and pondered. As my hair was soaking wet, I sat on the edge of my bed and thought, “How the hell is it already June?”
But seriously. 25-years-old? What. The. djsfkldsjkfl.
You know, time flies when you are having fun. You also know time flies when you don’t know what the hell you are doing. But that’s how life works, right?
Anyway, back to my birthday. Because it’s my birthday
As I sat up in bed, tired, wondering why I was legit so hungry at 6 a.m., I also thought to myself, ‘hm, 25. Awesome. 15 years ago I thought 25 was old.” I also thought I would be married with 6 kids, but EW, what was I thinking?
I am now twenty-five. I spend my mornings snoozing my alarm, wondering when I am going to win the lotto, still not in to making plans a week in advance, still unable to go out and casually drink, still unable to swallow pills because I am scared of choking, and still learning to get through life day by day.
I could go on and on about the things I don’t know how to do, but birthdays are a time to reflect. Below are 9 of my 25-and-want-to-cry thoughts (because 10 would just mean I am overthinking):
You are completely happy with your 4 friends
Midnight “HAPPY BIRTHDAY” texts don’t exist anymore:
You stop expecting more from others:
I have always been one to not expect much from others because it’s way too exhausting and I would rather spend my time happily eating or taking a nap. But as you get older, you learn to not focus on every body else and focus more on your happiness. If you want something done right, don’t wait for someone else to do it. Do it yourself.
Your loved ones will always be there:
From your family to your close friends, to your perfect boyfriend, your birthday will never go unnoticed. I hate my birthday. I also hate admitting that I hate my birthday. No, I have never had a bad birthday experience. No, I don’t hate my life. I just dislike making people go out of their way to be with me on my birthday. What I do know is that being with family and friends will always make turning one year old a little easier.
You still won’t know how to grocery shop:
Will grocery shopping ever get easier? What do I need to buy in order to make an enjoyable salad? Why are there so many different cuts of chicken? Is it that necessary for bacon to be so expensive? Help, dad.
You now, more than ever, know the beauty of a glass of wine or beer:
Birthday’s are not all about balloons and gifts:
Social media ‘Happy Birthdays’ are a sweet gesture:
Thinking about life becomes more difficult:
Is 25-years-old too old to turn your dreams in to reality? Is this where I am going to be? The answer is always NO. I have learned that if you are unhappy with something, do something about it. But sometimes, it’s hard to give yourself the reassurance that everything is going to be OK and that’s normal. But once you move forward, you’ll know exactly what it’s like to grow as a person and feel accomplished.
You know, I think I am doing this whole 25-years-old thing right. I am running my own entertainment website, I have a great job, I am on my way to starting my own YouTube segment, and most importantly, I am surrounded by unconditional love and support. This year will be a big one. Then again, every year is a new chapter in your life. Take the time to enjoy the ride and remember to tell those you care about how much they mean to you.
Another year, another adventure. Thank you all for the birthday wishes. I love you forever!